Sometimes I have to wonder how you would react if you had all my pain.
Your left hand would have limited ability because your middle finger is all curled up from a flare up and has pretty much been permanently damaged, making even the simplest left hand task more difficult. Not to mention that you can feel it spreading into all of your fingers.
All of your joints are in a constant state of buzzing pain, that by the way can get so much worse but this is it at its base level.
Your spine is hurting and the cause for most of your immobility because for some reason you don't have a mattress to sleep on and you don't have money at the moment to spend on a mattress because you're spending it on medical treatments so you can live a somewhat normal life unhindered by this condition.
Most of your muscles are in pain too, being strained to the limit because of the arthritis. It's an auto immune disease, your body is attacking itself.
It also hurts to sneeze, cough, and sometimes laugh.
You also will need a cane to travel sometimes because your legs are hurting too much and unable to keep you up without support. Did I also mention that because of this, your knees are misaligned and your legs are now about an inch and a half in difference causing a permanent limp unless you're willing to take a little pain in your hips to make it look normal.
The best part is, no matter how much medicine you take, you can still feel the pain. It may not hurt while the drugs are in effect but you can still feel it, you can feel that after the medicine wears off that you will have trouble. The medicine's pain relieving effect only works at full strength for about 4 hours. That even if you have a good night's rest you will not know if you'll be able to move in the morning.
That even through all the pain, which can be registered at a 17 on a scale of 1 - 10, you struggle to keep up a strong image around the house because your mother looks at you with a piercing look of pity and disgrace with a tinge of resentment because her child does not help around the house as much as she expects.
Oh, almost forgot to mention. The medicine will become ineffective within a month because your body has grown used to it, making it so you will have to spend most of your days without medication.
Your left hand would have limited ability because your middle finger is all curled up from a flare up and has pretty much been permanently damaged, making even the simplest left hand task more difficult. Not to mention that you can feel it spreading into all of your fingers.
All of your joints are in a constant state of buzzing pain, that by the way can get so much worse but this is it at its base level.
Your spine is hurting and the cause for most of your immobility because for some reason you don't have a mattress to sleep on and you don't have money at the moment to spend on a mattress because you're spending it on medical treatments so you can live a somewhat normal life unhindered by this condition.
Most of your muscles are in pain too, being strained to the limit because of the arthritis. It's an auto immune disease, your body is attacking itself.
It also hurts to sneeze, cough, and sometimes laugh.
You also will need a cane to travel sometimes because your legs are hurting too much and unable to keep you up without support. Did I also mention that because of this, your knees are misaligned and your legs are now about an inch and a half in difference causing a permanent limp unless you're willing to take a little pain in your hips to make it look normal.
The best part is, no matter how much medicine you take, you can still feel the pain. It may not hurt while the drugs are in effect but you can still feel it, you can feel that after the medicine wears off that you will have trouble. The medicine's pain relieving effect only works at full strength for about 4 hours. That even if you have a good night's rest you will not know if you'll be able to move in the morning.
That even through all the pain, which can be registered at a 17 on a scale of 1 - 10, you struggle to keep up a strong image around the house because your mother looks at you with a piercing look of pity and disgrace with a tinge of resentment because her child does not help around the house as much as she expects.
Oh, almost forgot to mention. The medicine will become ineffective within a month because your body has grown used to it, making it so you will have to spend most of your days without medication.
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